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22 August 2010 @ 10:51 pm
Dreams and Blues  
I dreamed about Alice-chan again last night.

This time it was definitely OG Alice-chan. She had her hair in a "straight cut" above her shoulders, with bangs.

Because it was OG Alice-chan and she was with Tara-chan I wasn't sure if I should talk to her or not. I think she approached me and chatted for a second "for old time's sake". We took a picture together.

I believe we were at a theater... Maybe in my dream she and Tara-chan were seeing Tomu's concert or something.

That's all. I know that the haircut at least came from me seeing Koto Marie come out of Bow Hall with hair like that (and I'm fairly sure it was Amase Izuru with her)... But the rest of the dream probably stemmed from guilt and general taidan blues.

This evening I went to Michael-chan's ochakai. It was so great, so much fun. She was so sweet and so cool at the same time.

So it's definitely not her fault I want to just curl up in a ball and cry right now.

I don't want to leave. I don't want to stop going to ochakais and meeting babies and doing Takarazuka kangeki.

I'm a hopeless addict.
 
 
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ruderal_speciesruderal_species on August 22nd, 2010 04:24 pm (UTC)
I think once you decide to go, and it's final, you start to see all the good things about staying more. Throw in taidan timing and anyone would feel tossed about emotionally. Try to be be patient with yourself. <3
rachpenarachpena on August 22nd, 2010 04:28 pm (UTC)
I will miss your reports on babies. You've made me more aware of them which is hard when all you have is the dvds.
I have a question: Who is Michael? I can't find that nickname anywhere.

Thanks for all your work
「日本に早く笑顔が戻ることを心から願ってます。」: Kijou Mitsurufubusan on August 22nd, 2010 04:34 pm (UTC)
Michael is Ooki Makoto's Nickname.

takawiki page
=> http://www.takarazuka-revue.info/tiki-index.php?page=Ooki+Makoto
Katelyn: Onigirihappy_riceball on August 22nd, 2010 04:59 pm (UTC)
*hugs* ♥
Toni D: [Glee] Dudetonihime on August 22nd, 2010 08:51 pm (UTC)
Please tell me that there is at least a LITTLE part of you that is excited to be coming back to AZ? T_______T
Julie: alice windowwao_wao on August 23rd, 2010 02:29 am (UTC)
Of course I want to go home. As much as I talk up my Takarazuka fan life, there are an equal number of things that I miss and look forward to back in AZ.

It's just like having my heart in two places at the same time.
Toni D: [ANTM] Marvita Shifty Eyestonihime on August 23rd, 2010 03:09 am (UTC)
I'll just have to haxor your "lokaichan" account and post something about things you're looking forward coming back to. XD
A fascination frantic in a ruin that's romantic: Angels Homeshirabyoshi on August 22nd, 2010 11:54 pm (UTC)
I don't want to leave.

Welcome to how the other half has been living all this time. :( I never want to leave either. But at least those who leave can later on enjoy the knee-weakening thrill of coming back.