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20 January 2009 @ 12:45 am
But somewhere I hope there is still light in the cosmos.  
Thank you, Hankyuu.

Thank you so goddamn much for breaking the pattern of putting farewell words in the titles of shows, so that we would all be completely blindsided by Tani's retirement announcement.

I said that Soragumi was perfect and didn't need to be touched, and the Hankyuu Gods had to punish me for my hubris.

I don't know what else to say. I got the news while I was at work and came the closest I ever have to asking if I could leave early for reasons of emotional anxiety. I didn't need this. I can't deal with this on top of everything else.

I take back everything I said about Kiriyan and Yumiko and Yuuhi. I don't care if they're older and deserve it more. I don't want anyone to be the next Soragumi top but Tomu. I don't want my troupe to be shaken up again. It's too soon.

I just want to know why. Why, Tani? Why?

Thoughts of Ume-chan staying or going bring very, very mixed feelings. The thought of Ume-chan and Tomu together... It's strange, but I almost think it would be too hot to be legal. Ume-chan x Chie would be some kind of poetic justice, but I don't know if my heart could take it.

At least a few people seem to think that Ume-chan will retire too. My heart can't really take this either. It's such a goddamn waste. She so good. She so different from anyone else in Takarazuka...

Dictating these thoughts out loud somehow makes everything even more depressing than it already was.

I don't really want to talk to anyone tomorrow. I'm either going to hole up in my room and only watch happy-making things... or finally start writing letters.
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utena1409: Tani black/whiteutena1409 on January 19th, 2009 04:12 pm (UTC)
I like your icon <3

And concerning why, I hope it's a GOOD reason!! >_>
Getting married would be a perfectly fine reason for me. I never thought it would be, but now that it has come this far, I somehow think this would be the answer that would be most satisfying for me.
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kalen9 on January 19th, 2009 05:31 pm (UTC)
I don't want anyone to be the next Soragumi top but Tomu.

Also, er, why was everyone blindsided? I kept thinking about it for the past couple months, so while I was sad when I saw the email this morning I wasn't surprised.
Juliewao_wao on January 20th, 2009 03:07 am (UTC)
I tend to take the status quo for granted... unless there are lots of big flashing signs warning RETIREMENT (i.e. with Touko).

I'm not sure I really want to know why you were already thinking about it, though. :(
kalen9 on January 20th, 2009 03:28 am (UTC)
Well, the math. Everyone seems to count by Daigekijou shows but the better counter seems to be number of years, i.e. three. Touko's surprised me because I was under the impression she was making the company far too much money for them to allow her the normal short run, but I figured the clock for Tani started ticking right at Bara ni. So. I'll admit my personal bets were on her hanging on until the show that ended in January of 2010, to give Tomu some leeway, but I guess not.
Anyway, it'll be fine. Takarazuka won't be the same without Tani, but at least Soragumi is in much better shape than most of the other troupes to go through a succession round.
John: 1 Osa & Ayane Embrace Kurotokagetokugawa on January 19th, 2009 06:01 pm (UTC)
Ms. Brittladybretagne on January 19th, 2009 11:06 pm (UTC)
*clings* I was so convinced that we were going to escape for right now from our troupe being messed with. Stupid Hankyu. ♥ ♥ ♥
cosmos14: cosmos topscosmos14 on January 20th, 2009 01:28 am (UTC)
uuughhh... i'm still in shock too. it's too sudden for a newbie like me. >_<'

I don't want anyone to be the next Soragumi top but Tomu.
yeah. i want Ranju too. but, it would be nice if Tommochin is the next top. =/

The thought of Ume-chan and Tomu together...
that would be nice too. ^^
Jess (Ducky): Gabriellejust_keep_on on January 20th, 2009 03:19 am (UTC)
*sends hugs*
Our Heroine aka Jenn: [tani1]kyttenfae on January 20th, 2009 11:09 am (UTC)
*so many hugs*