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29 January 2010 @ 10:43 pm
My little Ran-chan...  
It's probably good that I've had many hours to take the edge off before making this post.

I'm also getting this out before I read what anyone else has to say.

Like a Senator running for president, I've been writing and rewriting this speech over and over in my head for weeks.

Sometimes it was the "winning" speech, but most of the time it was the "losing" speech.

I was prepared to lose to Remi. Basically I wanted to lose to Remi.

I was not prepared, at all, for Ran-chan.

And so now the evil, evil Powers That Be put me in a position in which a musumeyaku I actually like much more than Remi is becoming the next top musumeyaku of Hanagumi.

But I wanted it to be Remi, I really did, because then I could have a little faith in things following a natural order. It seemed right; more than anything else it just seemed like she was in the right position and that was what ought to happen.

And even if it wasn't Remi, I accepted the unsettling possibility that it might be Amachaki. That girl, to me, outshines many musumeyaku I've seen who have more experience than her. I could kind of imagine her with Matobun -- although maybe that's just the stars in my eyes. But regardless I didn't want it to be her, really, because she's so young and thus her promotion goes against everything I claim to stand for.

So instead, the position goes to her classmate Ran-chan. Two 92nd musumeyaku, both of whom I support through earnest letter-writing.

Add Himeka into the mix and they've got three 92nd musumeyaku being promoted, all in the same troupe.

I don't understand. I one hundred percent, really and truly, don't understand at all what makes this the right choice. Why is such a tiny musumeyaku who's completely new to the troupe better than one who's at least been there for a year.

I don't even know whether I can blame this on Matobun, or just the company.

Having essentially given up on Alice-chan making top, I actually didn't want her to be transferred to Hanagumi -- or anywhere else -- because I feared the backlash. I feared her being thrown into a new environment and me having to divide my loyalties.

So now it's happening to Ran-chan instead. This darling girl I was so impressed with in "The Two Noble Kinsmen" less than year ago... She, the sacrificial lamb.

She's becoming a top star.

Don't tell me anymore to have hope for the plight of musumeyaku. This is it, the final nail in the coffin.

On the one hand I want to cling to the ones I love even more and support them fiercely.

On the other hand, I hate the company so much tonight that I just want to give up and cry and make this awful headache go away.

(I might change this icon later, but for now it accurately expresses my feelings.)
Current Mood: blankblank
Becca: Micchan and Tacchin in The Second Lifemuffin_song on January 29th, 2010 04:28 pm (UTC)
I've got nothing, other than that I'm thinking of you.
ceteranna: headphonesceteranna on January 29th, 2010 04:32 pm (UTC)
Agreed. This sucks. I love Ran-chan to bits. She was amazing in Kinsman. But I cannot believe they're promoting her when she hasn't even had an official lead yet, not in shinkos or in Bows or anything. And now she'll probably retire in a year or so with Matobun and they'll have half-wasted another incredibly talented musumeyaku through underdevelopment and too-early promotion. Screw you, stupid Hankyu.

... Sorry, I usually try to either ignore fandom stuff these days or look on the bright side, but I had to spew a little on this one. I hate it that I'm angry over the promotion of a favorite of mine, that's ridiculous. Stupid, stupid Hankyu.
lliri_blanclliri_blanc on January 29th, 2010 07:41 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. And there's nothing I can say to make it hurt less.

At the same time, I do think it's important to remember and treasure that Alice is still the same person as ever and deserves the same love and support as ever. If it makes it easier for you to ignore other people in turn, that's only fair. (Personally, I found - and find - it amazingly painful to watch people like Sou and Tomu and Toyoko after everything went down last winter.)
Just, you know, don't feel bad about it and try to remember that what you love is independent of all this.
Julie: alice kochou arrowswao_wao on January 30th, 2010 12:06 am (UTC)
It disturbs me a little to think people might believe that any of this nonsense makes me love Alice-chan any less. My desire to support her is not dampened but rather energized, and I have a fierce pride in the numbers our club pulls compared to other musumeyaku.

I'm not sure if my love is completely independent of all this, or if it would be easier to ignore others, but I do know that my devotion to my girl hasn't changed.
lliri_blanclliri_blanc on January 30th, 2010 12:45 am (UTC)
You know all of those people who ditched Ahi's club en masse? For many of them it wasn't because they didn't love her anymore or because they made a rational calculus. It was because they spent so much time being angry and sad that they couldn't take it anymore. (There were plenty of rather frightening and very depressing swan songs posted. And many more that weren't, I'm sure.)
I've watched it happen to other bloggers too, and it's not something I'd want to happen to you.
kirakira_sora: Masami Womankirakira_sora on January 29th, 2010 08:39 pm (UTC)
I echo Maggy's words. Remember to cherish what you have for the time you have it. I know you do, but I think you haven't quite realised that nobody is going to get angry at you for it nor will they get angry that you ignore others.

Just love Alice all the more now.
magenta07 on January 29th, 2010 08:52 pm (UTC)
And now she'll probably retire in a year or so with Matobun and they'll have half-wasted another incredibly talented musumeyaku through underdevelopment and too-early promotion.

this x 100

i'd hate to be in their position too. imagine working your ass off getting into the company and training for 2 years only to be fast-tracked into a short career. sure there's work after zuka, but they worked hard to get INTO zuka, not any other company. it just saddens me that some of the most talented women in japan are being treated like cattle.

also, i'm a performer, so i understand the UTMOST IMPORTANCE of having the time to HONE YOUR SKILLS. and i honestly think that if hankyuu continues down this road, they're going to find they've missed out on some AMAZING performers coz they didn't bother to let them grow into themselves as artists before running them out of the company.

anyway, that's my 2 cents... but i'm still holding out on alice-chan making top :)
michiru42: PGSM Dark Mercurymichiru42 on January 30th, 2010 12:58 am (UTC)
I am completely, 100% with you. I am ticked off, to the point of swearing up a storm in my head and only holding back because I know so many people get offended by such words. I haven't been this mad since Kacha got Elisabeth.

And, just like with Kacha, the problem isn't with Ran-chan. Generally speaking, when a star doesn't go to top star, it's not such a big deal for me as long as they're still getting parts. But something about this just seems like a slap to Remi, to say nothing of the other very ready musumeyaku hanging around. And on top of that, looking at the Gubijin cast list, a couple of significant female roles went to otokoyaku.

It's just one of those days where it seems like the management is evil.

Tomorrow, I'll be graceful again, especially since it looks like Remi's being positioned as Hoshigumi's new nibante musumeyaku, which means she's in a troupe with much less competition (Hanagumi being full of shin-musumeyaku). Tonight, I'm mad.