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26 October 2010 @ 11:24 am
...And she's back again  
Okay so. I've had my week-long break from the internet. You may have thought I wouldn't need a week, since I haven't been very present online anyway, but it was for my wrists as much as for my emotional state. And when my carpal tunnel gets bad it affects my emotional state, so it's all connected anyway.


I made it a point to reply to everyone's comments on my last post. It was really nice that so many people had words of encouragement, but for all the cries of "just don't read 2chan!" and "screw the haters!" ...Something needs to be done; more needs to be said on this subject, as ekusudei already has.

I'm not going to do that right now, though.

Yesterday I got a 5-page letter in the mail from a club friend. It was very sweet, and gave me some Alice-chan information that I really appreciated hearing, and I thought to myself... If there are still at least 10 people in Japan who genuinely care about me, then I must have done something right. :)

Next up: proof that Julie can't give up Takarazuka or Japan in general, as evidenced by the number of dreams she still has on those themes.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Tiger: oozora yuuhi「i'm here」muirin on October 26th, 2010 07:14 pm (UTC)
Embarrassingly I didn't manage to comment on your previous entry(ies) (immense stress, lots of work and poor health), but I want to make sure that you know I read it all and that I'm rooting for you, always! You've been more than a wonderful guidance to me and your journal is more often than not my connection to the Takarazuka world.

What happened was terrible (I read some of it, what I can bear) and I'm just so sorry.. now I only hope, and your post seems to imply it, that you bounce back with strength - that I'm sure you've got plenty of - and endurance - and lots of love for what's actually important, e.g. your girl and the Japanese friends you have made during your stay there.

Lots of love! ♥♥
happy_riceball on October 26th, 2010 08:23 pm (UTC)
*hugs* <3
John: My Hearttokugawa on October 26th, 2010 08:51 pm (UTC)
*Sending lots of love and hugs*
Jen: Fujii - Glompcaithion on October 27th, 2010 01:09 am (UTC)
I must have done something right.

You were amazing♥ Alice and her staff's actions, and T and her crew, and your club friends -- I think they all bear that out in ten foot caps♥
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Ms. Britt: [snuggle]ladybretagne on October 27th, 2010 03:03 am (UTC)
Adding one more voice to the chorus that of course there are people in Japan who love you and of course you did plenty of somethings right. Love you to pieces, Julie-pyon, and my standing offer to talk if you ever need me is always there. ♥
3peanuts3peanuts on October 27th, 2010 10:12 am (UTC)
I've already posted my "second thought" speculations on the subject, so I'll try not to repeat myself. And I agree with ekusudei (will reply to her later): something must be done.
I think a good compromise would be just avoiding posting anything that can be seen by "envious eyes" (spot the quote) as either bragging (*squee, I got a kiss from Takachan!*) or violating seito's privacy (for example, reijou are perceived as "private mail": I've always thought, even if I've never told you, that maybe posting reijou - especially the actual message, not just the pic - was a little too much, cause it felt like posting a letter received from a friend).
I don't think we could ever stop sharing our feelings, it would be unnatural, even if I do understand that from a Japanese point of view exposing your feelings is perceived as "imposing" on people who - as a general rule - don't care much about your feelings.
And after all, I see no point in "screening" our feelings, especially when they are all about LOVE, when people normally feel so darn free to express HATE.
It would be like that questionable puritan American attitude according to which you can show a manslaughter on TV, but not a sex scene.
michiru42: Maa-chan and Kashimichiru42 on October 27th, 2010 03:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry about your carpal tunnel. :( That stinks.

As far as not giving up Zuka goes, there's no reason you should. You love it, and the people that matter love you too. If there's something you can do to feel better about 2Chan, that's awesome, because we all want you to feel comfortable. But if you can stick around and enjoy yourself, and realize you've done something right--you've done a lot of things right, in fact!--I'm glad, 'cause I feel lucky to have you around. :)
starbuck98starbuck98 on October 28th, 2010 10:02 pm (UTC)
welcome back! :)